People always wonder why I don't celebrate Christmas like everyone else. They wonder why I don't get excited for the music, lights, or the super cheesy Christmas movies. I wasn't always the Grinch, I use to love this holiday. I use to love the excitement of waking up to see all the cookies and milk gone, and seeing the gifts under the tree, Growing up we didn't have much but my parents did make sure that we had an amazing Christmas. I remember waking up and my sister and I running into the living room full of emotions to see little boxes with our names on them.
Sadly I no longer feel any emotion towards Christmas, I recognize the reason for the holiday and then I move on about my day.
I can in fact pinpoint to the exact year that Christmas lost it's joy and magic, it was the year of 2004. That was the year that I so suddenly lost my mother. That was the year that I realized that I took my beautiful and amazing mother for granted,
The saying "You don't know what you have until it's gone" well it's nothing but the truth. I didn't realize that I had the most amazing mother in the entire world. I didn't realize how much she loved me. I didn't realize it until it was to late.
Christmas just isn't the same without her. It's not the same without that warm smile.
People wonder why I don't like Christmas, here's your answer; I don't like it because it's not even going to be the same,
I love you mom. More than you will ever know.
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