▲Who Am I?

With every minute that passes there is one daunting question that haunts me. Who am I?

Am I the funny girl that everyone looks to for a comic relief?

Am I the loner who never fits in? Or am I just taking up space that could be put to better use?

These are the questions that I use to ask my self. Being the comic relief isn't bad, I love making people laugh when their world seems to be falling apart. Seeing the smile that once starts out as a little crack, turns into a gaping hole of laughter. But the downfall of this is no one EVER seems to takes what I have to say seriously. This is why when I have ideas I tend to keep them to my self. I hate it when I try to be serious no one sees that. To be honest I have no idea why God made me the comic relief, this is something I am still trying to figure out.

I have never fit in anywhere. Never in my whole life have I had a specific group that I spent all my time with. Never have I had the profound knowing that I belonged somewhere. You know what? I don't care anymore, God made me so I wouldn't fit in. He needs me to be different, he needs me to be able to stand out. He needs me to be able to be different. God didn't call us to be all the same.

Am I just here taking up space? I use to battle this demon all the time, and just recently I came to terms that, no I have a purpose and I was MEANT to be here.

No one is just put here to occupy space, we all have a unique purpose as to why we are here. That is the reason we all look different and have different personalities. That way the can reach different people and connect with them.

I am still working on finding out who I am. I'm not doing it alone, I have an amazing God that is helping me through the process. He puts me in situations to mold and shape me into the women that I am meant to be.

I can't tell you who you are. I can't even tell my own self who I am. But I know that God knows who I am and he knows who I am suppose to be.